| Wow... |
[Apr. 22nd, 2006|02:01 am] |
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I just realized how long I've actually kept this journal. I started this journal all the way back in Sept. 03, that's almost 3 years ago now. :O I had forgotten that it was that long ago that I actually started this thing, it never felt that long ago, but its weird to look back and read all my thoughts. And for feeling like I don't really write all that much, I've built up quite a library of posts during this time. Also, I seem to repeat myself with the whole diet and exercise thing, oh well. :p It's time for bed for me. |
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| How spoiled am I? |
[Apr. 15th, 2006|11:17 pm] |
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| | Wonders Never Cease- Morcheeba | ] |
Do you have:
(x) your own cell phone
(x) a tv in your bedroom
(x) an iPod
( ) a photo printer
( ) your own phone line
( ) TiVo or a generic digital video recorder
(X) high-speed internet access (aka not dialup)
( ) a surround sound system in bedroom
( ) dvd player in bedroom
( ) at least a hundred DVDs
(X) a childfree bathroom
( ) your own in-house office
( ) a pool
( ) a guest house
( ) a game room
( ) a queen-size bed -- King sized, actually.
( ) a stocked bar (almost)
(X) a working dishwasher
(x) an icemaker
(x) a working washer and dryer
(x) at least ten things from a designer store
( ) expensive sunglasses
( ) framed authentic art (not lithographs)
( ) Egyptian cotton sheets or towels
( ) a multi-speed bike
( ) a gym membership
(x) large exercise equipment at home
( ) your own set of golf clubs
( ) a pool table
( ) a tennis court
(x) local access to a lake, large pond, or the sea
( ) your own pair of skis -- used to.
( ) enough camping gear for a weekend trip in an isolated area
( ) a boat
( ) a jet ski
( ) a neighborhood committee membership
( ) a beach house or a vacation house/cabin
( ) wealthy family members
(x) two or more family cars
( ) a walk-in closet or pantry
(x) a yard
( ) a hammock
(x) a personal trainer
(x) good credit
( ) expensive jewelry
( ) a designer bag that required being on a waiting list to get
( ) at least $100 cash in your possession right now
( ) more than two credit cards bearing your name (not counting gas cards or debit cards)
( ) a stock portfolio
(x) a passport
( ) a horse
( ) a trust fund (either for you or created by you)
( ) private medical insurance
( ) a college degree, but no student loans
Do you:
( ) shop for non-needed items for yourself (like clothes, jewelry, electronics) at least once a week
( ) do your regular grocery shopping at high-end or specialty stores
(x) pay someone else to clean your house, do dishes, or launder your clothes (not counting dry-cleaning)
( ) go on weekend mini-vacations
( ) send dinners back with every flaw
( ) wear perfume or cologne
( ) regularly get your hair styled or nails done in a salon
( ) have a job but don't need the money OR
( ) stay at home with little financial sacrifice
( ) pay someone else to cook your meals
( ) pay someone else to watch your children or walk your dogs
( ) regularly pay someone else to drive you
( ) expect a gift after you fight with your partner
Are you:
( ) an only child
( ) married/partnered to a wealthy person
( ) baffled/surprised when you don't get your way
Have you:
( ) been on a cruise
(x) traveled out of the country
(x) met a celebrity
( ) been to the Caribbean
(x) been to Europe
( ) been to Hawaii
(x) been to New York
( ) eaten at the space needle in Seattle -- Near the space needle. I'm couting it!
( ) been to the Mall of America
(x) been to the Eiffel tower in Paris
( ) been on the Statue of Liberty in New York
( ) moved more than three times because you wanted to
( ) dined with local political figures
(x) been to both the Atlantic coast and the Pacific coast (in any country)
Did you:
( ) go to another country for your honeymoon
( ) hire a professional photographer for your wedding or party
(x) take riding or swimming lessons as a child
( ) attend private school
( ) have a Sweet 16 birthday party thrown for you
Not too terribly spoiled if I say so myself. |
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| Just checking... |
[Apr. 11th, 2006|11:48 am] |
Yep, still very excited about this exercise program! :D It's been almost a week now and I think I can already notice some small changes, or at least my mind is tricking me into seeing small changes, I'm fine with either way.
I've had some unexpected adjustment periods. I was working on a cardio machine for the first time on Friday and I spent too long on it and I wasn't feeling too well then. I didn't expect the soreness to last as long as it has been, but then I don't feel too bad today after my workout yesterday, so maybe my body is starting to adapt to this new way of living.
All in all, I'm just looking forward to the day now when I achieve my goal. :) |
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| I'm in the mood for an update... |
[Mar. 2nd, 2006|06:50 pm] |
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Hello all, I've been in an updating mood these past few days. It's been a while since I've posted anything and I know you all love to read my nonsensical ramblings about my life.
Things are going well though, I'm doing alright in most of my classes, got back to playing with my lvl 60 mage on WoW, having fun.
My birthday is quickly coming up, the big 2-0-, and it's making me feel old. I know 20 is not old, but it just sounds old to me. I don't feel like I should be turning 20, and its weird to think that most of my friends are now near or above 20. I knew something was up when I started to realize that I have vivid memories of things that happened 10 years ago now. It always amazes me how fast time seems to fly by, the weeks just seem to be going right past me. So what seems like so faraway is suddenly happening tomorrow. It's just weird.
I am looking forward to my birthday, I get to spend it at home which is the best part. My birthday luckily always falls during spring break for my school, so I will always get to spend it at home. :) It's nice, because it wouldn't be as much fun to spend it away from home. Sure I would get to spend it with my friends, but it's not the same as spending it at home with my family. I probably should mention that my birthday is on the 18th. I'll probably make a post about it on the boards to again share how old I feel. :p
In other news, I think I've found what is finally going to help me get over this slump I've been in, in terms of exercising and the like. My friend Jason, who is pretty athletic, agreed to let me work out with him after Spring Break when he starts up again. He had major heart surgery back in December, had 3 holes in his heart fixed, so he's been recovering from that, but he's just itching to get back to working out. So he'll be able to do that after spring break and I'm going to join him. I think this is going to help because I've grown tired of my workout method as it is now, and they say that doing something different is a good way to break a plateau. I'm going to be working out in an actual gym, something I've never done before with any regularity. And I'll be doing it with someone else, which will keep me from abandoning it because now I'll have someone to keep me in it. That's the one thing I've found I have a problem with, I can't kick my own butt to get me to go and workout, so I need this. I have really high hopes this, I feel I'm close to to where I can start achieving the kind of body I've always wanted. I really think this is going to work well, so I'm really looking forward to getting started. This has recharged my drive I feel, which is very good.
Well, that is all for now. Maybe I'll actually start posting semi-regular updates. :) |
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| I hate politics |
[Dec. 5th, 2005|12:08 am] |
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| | Politics of Dancing- Re-Flex | ] |
It's amazing how corrupt behind the scenes politics can exist in even some of the smallest organizations.
My fraternity just had their elections and I'm not too pleased with who won for president. I know none of you really care, but I need to talk about it to someone. My roommate and this other guy were nominated for President. The other guy, Chris, joined at the tail end of last semester and since then has had his eye set on President. He got wish tonight when he won and I'm not too happy about it. He's schemed his way to the top, he's made precise orchestrated moves to get this post. A lot of behind the scenes scheming, he was working with another member and my roommate on who should be in what position. Which I hate as well, how pre-ordained these elections get at times. That bothers me too. But this guy has just been expecting to win, he's been smug about it too and he just doesn't deserve it. He had his backing too, and they made some fantastic points as to why to vote for him during the elections. He has ties to the senate at school, he's approachable, he's well known on campus, he's everywhere on campus and blah blah blah blah. My roommate, John, is who I wanted to win. He's equally and moreso qualified to be president than Chris. He's just as approachable, some people on campus know him and he can get things done too. I thought we had enough votes to get him in, but it didn't work out as I thought. People who I thought would vote for him switched at the last minute. What's worse is that I was actually getting into all this back scene corruption as well, talking with people about who they might vote for. Ugh, it disgusts me now.
I just hate now that Chris is president, I might feel differently when its not so fresh, but right now I hate that he will be leading the fraternity for the next year. He doesn't deserve it, not now. I hate how he schemed his way to the top, I hate how he's probably giddy at his plans working perfectly. Things went right according to his and his backings plan.
I'm not happy that Scott is still our VP too, he hasn't done much, but people gladly let him run unapposed when he's done nothing productive as Epi. His backing just likes that he's in power, and he likes the power too now.
Sigh, well at least I won the position that I wanted.
I'm sorry, none of this probably makes any sense, but I just wanted to get it out of my thoughts. |
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| 3 years... |
[Nov. 13th, 2005|02:19 pm] |
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| | Slowdown by Morcheeba | ] |
On Nov. 13th, 2002 I embarked on the greatest and worst experience of my life.
My month long visit to France as part of my schools French Exchange. It had always been a dream of mine to go to Europe, especially France. I wasn't sure at first when I signed up, because it required staying with a french family for 2 weeks, but I decided to take the risk and go. I was warned beforehand that I may not be able to fully open up to the french family, but I decided to not worry about it too much. So, today was the day we left. I hadn't been on a plane since like 10 years before that, so I was excited enough to even be flying on a plane. They were nice planes too, big, had TV's on the seats in front. The flight across the Atlantic was fun, I didn't get much sleep, but it was still fun. The hotel wasn't too bad, it was different, kind of small, but not that bad. We visited Notre Dame and St. Chappille Cathedral that day. I walked up many winding staircases to get up in Notre Dame and look out at the city below. It was an amazing view. I also happened to be sick or something during this time, but the thing is that I never felt sick. I had a cough, but I never felt sick through the entire thing. Very odd. They made me get medicine, I didn't want to take it, but I had no choice. We spend the next 5 days in Paris. It was great, it was the real reason I went on the trip. We saw the Louvre, Eiffel Tower, Arc de Triomphe, all the big stops. We visited a dance club and a jazz club, the jazz club was especially fun. I went to a Piano thing, which turned out to be kind of boring and I nearly slept through the entire thing. Still, it was an amazing time. Then we had to leave on the 19th for Le Mans, where the french families were. We stopped at Versailles and Chartres before we went there, those were also really fun. Then we made it to Le Mans and the part I had been dreading the whole time. I didn't have time to think about what was going on when I stepped off the bus, I stepped off, my name was called and I was handed off to a family of strangers. The Car ride was mostly silent, despite the fact that they told us to talk a lot during it. Looking back, that's kind of an omen. Don't get me wrong, the Family that I stayed with was very, very nice. They were very kind and I like them all. But with how I am, and how I work. It just didn't work. I tried to open up, I tried to get to know them. I tried to make sure I looked like I was having fun. Which I was at times. But I'm not a very expressive person and towards the end they thought I wasn't expressing a lot of emotion, like I wasn't having a lot of fun. Not to mention, i wasn't speaking a lot of french. I tried to, but they all spoke it so fast. It just didn't work out, but I still thought that afterwards the guy that I stayed with would come back to America and stay with me. But that's for later. I did have fun with them, They took me to this place with all these weird interactive rides. It was really interesting. They bought me little presents, I got a CD and a dog statue from then, and also when I first got their they had a bag full of little treats. It was very nice. I thought I had expressed enough emotion, I thought I had made it clear that I really appreciated all that they did for me. I guess not. Afterwards I find they thought I hadn't shown enough appreciation, enough emotion, I didn't open up to them. Just as the teacher warned me. So the kid I stayed with wanted to stay with someone else. Of course, they know this right after I leave. I don't find out until a month before they are suppose to come that next april, and on my birthday no less. So that's where they worst experience of my life comes from. I had never felt that kind of rejection before, I felt like they had rejected my entire being. I tried to rectify it by sending emails to the kid, telling him my side of the story. How I really did appreciate everything, and etc. We reached a compromise, he would stay with someone else, but he would spend one night at my house. It was nice, he came over, he brought us more gifts. I think he had fun, I don't know. But it was still nice. Though, even today I still harbor some anger towards him for rejecting me like that. I knew we didn't get along perfectly in France, but I wanted to change that in America. Oh well. If you have read all of this, then I must congratulate you. And this isn't even the whole story, I left out the parts of where I visit Normandy and Mont. St. Michel and St. Malo. Also all the little things with people in my group, the teacher in charge.
They say that what you remember of an event 3 years later will be what you remember for the rest of your life. Well, with all that I remember after writing this little piece, I'd say that I have enough to satisfy me though out my life. Yep, my many memories and the 330 photos that I took while there. I was a little shutterbug and I had to take a picture of everything because I didn't trust my memory enough to remember every little detail, though I'm seeing now that it has. Oh well, Its still nice to have pictures. You don't have to comment if you don't want to. I just felt the need to mark this little event. :) |
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| Is it possible to be out of shape if you've never been in shape? |
[Nov. 3rd, 2005|11:34 pm] |
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| | Rock Lobster- The B-52's | ] |
I know, I know, I'm actually updating this thing, it's shocking and hopefully I still have faithful readers out there. I know, I'm always paranoid about that. :p
Either way, that question has been on my mind lately, and I felt the need to write about it and see what you all thought.
It all started after I went to watch some of my fraternity friends compete in a 3 on 3 Basketball charity tournament. Now, I joined the geeky, nerd house. I mean, we practically have a guild on WoW, and if you all know me well enough, you'd know that I'm not what you would think of as the fraternity type. But that withstanding, we don't have a lot of really athletic members so to be competing in a basketball tournament is really something. Either way, afterwards I went with two of them to have breakfast. During the meal, they both start sharing stories of their previous athletic acheivements. One used to play Rugby in High School, he was talking about all the crazy stuff he used to do in that. The other one still plays tennis, but use to play soccer and he's the most athletic person in the fraternity, he was telling his athletic stories. As they were swapping stories, it got me looking back on my life in athletics and how it mostly amounts to me hating gym and never really being that athletic. Then they start talking about their so out of shape now. They're so out of shape, but they're both pretty skinny and don't really look out of shape. It got me kind of angry because in my little world, if you're skinny then you can't be out of shape, but that just comes from a history of being overweight my entire life and always envying the skinny kids. So now when I feel I'm getting closer to how I've always wanted to look they got me thinking. I've always be in out of shape it seems, I can't remember if or when I was ever in shape. So it made it think, can I be out of shape if I've never been in shape to begin with? I don't know, technically compared to where I've been, I would be in shape now, but I still feel out of shape. The good thing about there conversation is that it's driven me to work harder on getting in shape, so that maybe one day I can join them in that basketball tournament or anything else athletic.
I apologize if what I just wrote doesn't make too much sense, it's late and I'm just rambling, but feel free to humor me with a response. :p |
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| Because Tim has forced me to... |
[Aug. 11th, 2005|01:22 am] |
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| | Leila-Les Negresses Vertes (It's in French! :O) | ] |
I shall update my livejournal.
I've had this lingering pain in the back of my mouth since I had my wisdom teeth out that just wont go away. It's better now, but it's really made eating a chore these past few days. It's finally starting to get better so I can get back to eating normally, huzzah!
In other news, I have to go back to school on next Wednesday. Part of me doesn't want to go back and wants to stay here at home and continue being lazy and playing world of warcraft. The other part wants to go back to school to see all his new friends again and have more fun with them, and play world of warcraft. But I can already tell that this year is shaping up to be better than last, and last year was pretty damn good. First off, I'll have a roommate that I can actually talk to and interact with. :O Next, my class schedule looks good, I have no classes past 3 o'clock this upcoming semester. And I just have this feeling that its going to be another fun year, its just that home is so nice and comforting and relaxing that I don't want to leave it either, but alas I must.
So there you go Tim, an actual update, you can put that shotgun down now. :p |
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| Time to check again... |
[Aug. 5th, 2005|03:58 pm] |
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| | The Hustle! :D | ] |
Do you read me?
If you read me on a regular/semi regular basis, leave me a comment and let me know.
Then, post this in your diary and find out who reads you.
You'll be surprised how many different people read you, and you never know who you might become friends with!
I got this from fmphoenixhawk, but I don't know how to do the link thing. :p |
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| Well, I survived :D |
[Jul. 31st, 2005|05:21 pm] |
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As with most things I overworry about, the procedure didn't go that bad. I spent most of the past two days in bed, but otherwise I've just been kind of sore and I have to keep putting an icepack on my face. But I'm feeling a lot better already and I'm looking forward to getting the stitches taken off on Friday. With all that worrying over I've now switched to worrying that I might develop dry socket, which doesn't sound too nice. But like my previous fears, this one probably wont come true either, which is good of course.
But thanks for all your kind words and stories, they really did help a lot. :) |
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| So I get to have 4 wisdom teeth pulled on Friday... |
[Jul. 27th, 2005|12:51 am] |
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and I'm terrified/Freaking out! Curse you anxiety! >:O
Yeah, I'm not really looking forward to it and I'm just worrying over every minor detail. Luckily, they're going to put me under, so I wont be conscious during the procedure, because I couldn't do it otherwise. Its the after part that I don't like. The pain, laying in bed all day for who knows how long, being stuck on soft/liquid foods, and just everything about the whole after process I am not looking forward to. Being on pain medication, trying to make sure I don't get dry socket. I'm petrified of the whole thing.
So please comfort me, tell me some stories of your dealings with wisdom teeth and how its not going to be the hellish after process that I imagine it will be.
I'm scared! :_| |
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| What does it mean for our country when you can buy a Confederate bikini? |
[Jul. 6th, 2005|07:51 pm] |
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| | Our lips are sealed- The Go-Go's | ] |
So I've been cursed with a hi-speed internet connection here in Gulf Shores. Tropical Storm Cindy just passed through the other day, that was interesting, very windy.
So Gulf Shores and the surrounding area sometimes go by the name of the Redneck Riviera, because a lot of Southerners come here to vacation, instead of somewhere in Florida. So I'm surrounded by southern accents. :p Either way, looking in all these stores, I can't help but be worried by how commercialized the Confederate flag is here. You can find it on most anything, shirts, boogie boards, bumper stickers, beach towels, I even saw a bikini with the pattern on it. As I see all this, I wonder, who would buy this stuff? The Confederate flag represents a period of turmoil for our country, its not a good symbol, so why is it so commercialized? Why am I able to buy a Confederate bikini? How is their a market for this stuff? It boggles my mind.
Sometimes this country confuses me. |
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| What does it mean for our country when you can buy a Confederate bikini? |
[Jul. 6th, 2005|07:51 pm] |
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| | Our lips are sealed- The Go-Go's | ] |
So I've been cursed with a hi-speed internet connection here in Gulf Shores. Tropical Storm Cindy just passed through the other day, that was interesting, very windy.
So Gulf Shores and the surrounding area sometimes go by the name of the Redneck Riviera, because a lot of Southerners come here to vacation, instead of somewhere in Florida. So I'm surrounded by southern accents. :p Either way, looking in all these stores, I can't help but be worried by how commercialized the Confederate flag is here. You can find it on most anything, shirts, boogie boards, bumper stickers, beach towels, I even saw a bikini with the pattern on it. As I see all this, I wonder, who would buy this stuff? The Confederate flag represents a period of turmoil for our country, its not a good symbol, so why is it so commercialized? Why am I able to buy a Confederate bikini? How is their a market for this stuff? It boggles my mind.
Sometimes this country confuses me. |
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| Clothes shopping and Vacation time! :D |
[Jul. 2nd, 2005|01:58 am] |
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| |  cheerful | ] |
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| | Vacation- The Go-Go's | ] |
Normally I don't enjoy clothes shopping, but since I've started to lose more weight and look somewhat decent its been less of a chore. Especially since now I go with my older brother who I think has pretty good fashion sense. He works at Banana Republic and is pretty hip to what the kids where these days. :p
Not to mention I actually fit somewhat comfortably into a large sized shirt for the first time! :O And I fit into a size 36 pair of shorts! :O
Hopefully in the month that I have left before school after I get back from vacation will be enough to make a noticeable change in my appearance, so I can really start to look sexy. ;)
In other news, I'm off to Gulf Shores, Alabama tomorrow for what proves to be 2 weeks of beach fun. Sitting by the beach, wading in the gulf, collecting shells, maybe even go parasailing! :O
It's going to be fun! :D |
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| I know all slanguage |
[Jun. 28th, 2005|01:43 am] |
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| | amused | ] |
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| | Feeling Good by Michael Bublé | ] |
Your Slanguage Profile | | Aussie Slang: 25% | | Canadian Slang: 25% | | New England Slang: 25% | | Prison Slang: 25% | | Southern Slang: 25% | | Victorian Slang: 25% | | British Slang: 0% |
Heh :)
I should make a real update before I leave for my vacation. Going to Gulfshores, AL on saturday. :D |
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| Internet troubles and the freeing of the laptop |
[Jun. 21st, 2005|01:11 am] |
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| |  annoyed | ] |
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| | The sounds of Food Network | ] |
Perhaps with a more dynamic title, people will comment more. :p
Anyway, we got a new modem that has wireless capabilities, which my laptop can now take full advantage of. So now i'm sitting in the TV room area of the basement watching a history of milkshakes thing on Food Network as I type this entry. It's quite amazing, my laptop has been freed! It can go anywhere around the house now, even out on our deck I think! :D And the with the new modem, I think we got a minor speed bump in the internet speed as well.
There's just one problem...
For the past week, for a reason still unknown to us. Our connection has been on the fritz, going on and off now. Where it will work for most of the day, and then be on and off during the night. Until now this weekend, where it will work for like an hour and then go off and come back on a few hours later. It's most annoying, and I don't like it. Even now while writing this entry I'm not sure if it's still up. It's so unpredictable now, we finally called the company in charge last night, but even they're confused. Someone may have come down to take a look at the wires outside today, but I'm not sure. So tomorrow my dad is going to call back, and hopefully this internet trouble will end soon.
On the bright side, it has forced me to be more productive with my summer, so I guess that's good. I've started exercising again, and I'll hopefully be able to continue to work on eating well, but my mom bought a lot of delicious cookies today, which makes that quite hard. :p
So please, feel free to comment :D :p |
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| Internet troubles and the freeing of the laptop |
[Jun. 21st, 2005|01:11 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | annoyed | ] |
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| | The sounds of Food Network | ] |
Perhaps with a more dynamic title, people will comment more. :p
Anyway, we got a new modem that has wireless capabilities, which my laptop can now take full advantage of. So now i'm sitting in the TV room area of the basement watching a history of milkshakes thing on Food Network as I type this entry. It's quite amazing, my laptop has been freed! It can go anywhere around the house now, even out on our deck I think! :D And the with the new modem, I think we got a minor speed bump in the internet speed as well.
There's just one problem...
For the past week, for a reason still unknown to us. Our connection has been on the fritz, going on and off now. Where it will work for most of the day, and then be on and off during the night. Until now this weekend, where it will work for like an hour and then go off and come back on a few hours later. It's most annoying, and I don't like it. Even now while writing this entry I'm not sure if it's still up. It's so unpredictable now, we finally called the company in charge last night, but even they're confused. Someone may have come down to take a look at the wires outside today, but I'm not sure. So tomorrow my dad is going to call back, and hopefully this internet trouble will end soon.
On the bright side, it has forced me to be more productive with my summer, so I guess that's good. I've started exercising again, and I'll hopefully be able to continue to work on eating well, but my mom bought a lot of delicious cookies today, which makes that quite hard. :p
So please, feel free to comment :D :p |
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| Neat |
[Jun. 16th, 2005|10:53 pm] |
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 | You scored as Justice. Justice- with you is all that is fair and true in the hearts of men.
Justice | | 79% | Hope | | 71% | Temperance | | 68% | Prudence | | 64% | Charity | | 64% | Fortitude | | 61% | Faith | | 46% | </td>
The Seven Heavenly Virtues
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| So it wasn't that bad... |
[Jun. 9th, 2005|11:17 pm] |
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| | okay | ] |
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| | Virtual Insanity- Jamiroqaui | ] |
Last week that is, I knew it was going to be stressful, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it could have been.
The Rabbi came on Tuesday, that was interesting, I never thought that I would see our Rabbi in my house. He's actually the new one, the old one just retired, but anyway he was very nice as he gathered info about my grandpa from the rest of my family. I was the only grandchild there and I'm the youngest one and he asked me for any memories I might have, and I really couldn't think of that many. Which is not good, when he lived 5 minutes away my whole life, and all of my memories of him also include my grandma. There was never really much that I could remember just us doing, the one that stuck out was him and my grandma taking my brother and I to the zoo when I was younger. That was fun. Not much else happened that day.
Wednesday was the funeral and the first day of the chiva. The funeral was very nice, the Rabbi gave a lovely speech about him, and there was a good group of people there. It was interesting, for a man who lived such a simple life to have a decent sized group of people there to say good bye. That was nice, my grandma and my mom and dad and my moms siblings all sat in the front row, and I stood off to the side with the rest of the grandchildren. Even my best friend was there because his mom and mine are also really good friends, and that was nice to see. So the service was very nice, and then came the time for the family to ceremonially place some dirt on the grave. Now that was spooky, standing before this large pile of dirt and then picking up the shovel and sprinkling a little thing of dirt on his grave, it was just weird, standing at his open grave. I don't know how people can have open casket things, that would just creep me out if I had to actually see him laying in the casket.
After this, the real craziness began as the chiva began at our house. I've never seen such action at my house before. It started off quietly, the food showed up. And we got it all set up, and more and more people started to show up. I'll this about the chiva, I did like to see the rest of the immediate family, especially my older cousins who I don't get to see a whole lot. Being the youngest grandchild is hard, because it's like I don't have that much to talk about with them because a lot of them are in different stages of their lives. My two oldest cousins are married and one already has a 2 year old child. Her name is Elizabeth and she's very cute and adorable and also a little ball of energy, and she was probably the most enjoyable part of the week. She also at the moment has an odd obsession with all things tarzan and jungle like. Very odd for a 2 year old girl. But yes, from Tues-Thurs. the house was taken over from the rest of my family and that was just kind of unsettling. I didn't like that we had lost control of our house, but I could understand why. It was interesting though to just see all these people in my house, some of whom I had either never seen before, or hadn't seen in a long time. Also, chiva's= lots of food, we had so much left over that we were trying to give it away to as many people as we could. I could mention more, but I don't like going into extended family problems on this thing.
Lastly, the best thing about such a sad week was first having my uncle's poodle Maddie in my house for the week, as it's just a big fuzzball and I just love that dog. :x Second, when my cousin brought her gigantic airedale terrier Parker to the chiva that I had two dogs in my house! :D I love dogs and want one of my own, so to have two walking around my house was a real treat. :D
Well, that is all, feel free to respond, I don't like when there's no feedback. :p ;) |
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| So, My Grandfather passed away today... |
[May. 30th, 2005|05:05 pm] |
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And I'm not sure what to feel. I mentioned him a few posts ago, he had alzheimers and I was afraid to visit him in the nursing home. Well, I was never able to get around to that, but right now I'm not feeling too bad about that. I really wasn't sure if I wanted my last memory of him to be like how I hear he was in that place. So right now, I just don't think it's all sunk in yet. It'll probably hit me during the funeral, but then I guess that's normal.
So now it's going to be a crazy week, my aunt and uncle and their kids are staying at my house this week, which only serves to make things more hectic. The funeral is going to be on Wednesday and then after that we're sitting chiva at my house until Thursday night. For those of you that don't know, that's where family and friends come and bring food to the house and we all mourn and also celebrate the person who died. So it's going to be interesting. This is only my second funeral ever and the first for someone in my immediate family, so this all really new to me. It's going to be something, this week, I'll be sure to mention more afterwards. |
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